Cracking my nerves!

THE NOBLE PROFESSIONS

"MAG NURSING KO PA KAY MAO MANAY USO KARON" ,I uttered these words to my parents sometime in mid 2005. I think it was the time when the nursing profession was popping out like mushrooms on the grasslands. Nevertheless, I became what was expected of me, I graduated just like any other students from my batch. A few months after I graduation I took the board exam (the experience of living in a seminary was  quite something) and then with luck and divine providence I pass the PNLE exam. 

This is the annoying part coming, people are expecting you to go abroad and live the life like a rock star. They don't seem to think I am not just basking in the sun in other foreign lands, I am their to wipe the asses of  a senile woman who is just breathing because of the vents and dopa-mines the doctor prescribe her. Not to mention the subtle discrimination that  had been embedded to us once we set foot on their havens. We are not like that. That is the delusion that they are optimistically getting. Let me bring you to the real world, visit the nearest public hospital in your town. Then you will see the unsung heroes, the volunteer nurses who are working for free to the public hospitals with out any financial benefits in their white uniforms. Worst comes to worst, other social carcinogens (chief of hospitals)  ask them for a training fee. what the fuck is that?

Jumping way out of the topic, a couple days later i will take again an exam to enter the parallel world of nursing, the teaching profession. 

Star wars "The Election Saga"

The Philippines had always existed in two parallel universe, the politics thrones and the audience though ironically these universe is monitored with an asteroid that sometimes fails to give transmission signals to the both of hem.  

Every 3 years these two colossal bodies would collide in a place they called the "cubicle". Though the asteroid is also a part of this historical activity, it doesn't really care at all. Well, this is it, a few clicks of the universal clock and the so called change or unchanged may happen. 

 

So what if? If only the asteroid would help us to re educate the audience would it make a better Philippines?

Hell, yeah! Supposed that this would be realized!? How would they do it? 

This isn't like a simple ABC lesson in the classroom. wHAT IF THE students(audience) refuse to learn? 

how would it be possible?

Are we going to resort the thinking of the socialist? Reformat the 2 parallel universe? Might as well include the asteroids.

Think.... If only?

The lesser evil!

The spectre

It was not of cash issue- have I become a monster?  Now, I am setting in a large toilet boil and every time I tried to flush the dirt on it, the bowl fights back with its pungent splashes. It is like walking on a path with thousands of eyes are starring and just waiting for me to falter. Such, have I done the unjust? 

And now they have judge me like I am someone who burnt down the whole world?

Have they not done damaged on me before,  have not I save their conscience from damnation? 

Oh, yes! I am a man who values money, but I have not forsaken the values I have gotten from them. 

Welcome chapter 24

The last paragraphs are now on its final notes, so much for the metaphors and irony of chapter 23. To a brief summary it has been full of twists and turns from the expected short comings and the unexpected roads that I have taken (though I did take part of the way doesn't mean it was all the wrong way).

There were dreams that were accomplished some are not met and some are on the verge of failing and on the one side of success. It is like one of  the arch enemy of batman, (two face) as if we only have to directions in life either the head or the tail. It is only when we toss it on the air we could know our fate. Some dreams where unplanned with out any proper nursing intervention but with all the luck in the world it was reached with colors and laurels.

As to my career, I certainly am trying to fulfill a subconscious impulse, being a teacher. Is this what I really want in life? As of now, it is a maybe? who knows I'll be in the hospital again, giving IVF medications and mending the souls of the ill fated individuals grasping their last breath as they are about to depart to the unknown.

But if there is Something I cherished this year is her, the one that defied the laws of physics and psychology. When Newton's universal laws was inapplicable with her. She took all my sanity in a good way and now I am madly in love. For sure, Keepler and Galeleo would not agree if the world revolves around her and not in the sun.

So, As to the dawn of chapter 24, I would not expect to write stories of butterflies and paradise this year. But I know it would be something new and fresh because she is with me now. I know there will bitter sweet experiences that lies ahead.

But I am not afraid, because my ink of spirituality and my paper of aspirations are ready to be filled with stories waiting to be unfolded.

Teaching life.....

I have taught in a night high school for a month now, though it is just a practice (prerequisite  for a diploma), I  have felt to be a real one(heads up and proud)....
Though a li'l bit far from what people expect of me(bound to be in the wards of ta hospital giving medications  and taking Vitals signs of the sick and the depress), now I here in a preppy classroom with children whose mind are empty as the blackboard with out writings on it. My sole responsibility now, is to help them fill it up with the knowledge that is not only found in the books but the learning they will get when they are now in the real world and how they will use them.
So I as teacher don't just teach about the structures of the cell or the different organ system of a human being but it is now about life and the constant struggle we face every day....

Uwan Init Pista Langit

Here is heaven and hell.....

"Ana si Tatay ang langit na a ra kilid sa amung balay ug ang porgatoryo kani akung ge barugan karon" 

I have seen this movie when I got a chance to spend some time in the grandeur CICC two months ago. I just remembered this indie Cebuano film as it was literally raining while the sun is up flashing his heatwaves....

I could always relate  this metaphor to our everyday life; it has always been hard yet we continue struggling with our existence. Truly Zoren Keirkegard was absolutely right when quoted something like that this, human history was but all a struggle a struggle for the truth and struggle for its insignificant existence in this universe of uncertainty.